Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Warning.....Whining Ahead

Here is my Boo Hoo list. I'm dumping it here so I can hopefully go about my day without dragging this list around and burdening my family.

I am tired and can't sleep.
I am hurting and my percocet is not working fast enough.
I hate days that START with taking pain meds, it only goes downhill from here.
I need a shower. Most people take showers for granted, or as a relaxing part of the day. I see them as an obstacle. An energy sucker. Do you realize how much work goes into standing that long and washing yourself? Seriously, it is an EFFORT.
It's only been 1 1/2 weeks since I stopped the Enbrel..... I have 7 weeks until my Rheumy appointment. I will start Methotrexate after that....and I'm not sure how long it takes to work.
I'm trying not to cry thinking about the next couple months.
I have a sink full of dishes and 3 loads of laundry that need folding.
My 5 year old was trying to vacuum the floor yesterday....yes, it IS that bad.
I wish my mom lived closer so I would have some help around the house. (sorry mom)
Hubby is TRYING to be ok with all this. But having a hard time.
He got word that his department might be cutting back soon. Probably by fall. We are barely scraping by with his paycheck now. How will we do it on 32 hours a week??
The new Fibro drug got approved....but I can't start it until AFTER I see how the Methotrexate works. Who knows how long that will be. I hate waiting.
R has a doctor appointment today. That means I have to get dressed.
Are you tired of me complaining yet?

Thanks for letting me complain....and I'm sorry to dump all this on you. On a lighter note I saw this and thought it was cute. I wish it was on a sticker so I could put it on my van.


Anonymous said...

I hope things work out for you and that it all looks a bit brighter soon!

Jillene said...

Complain away. We all have to get it out sometime. I hope that you feel better soon!!

CaJoh said...

At least you are able to get it out. So often we hold things in and they eat us up.

Mimi said...

Don't apologize for venting. We're not just here for the fun stuff, we care about how you're doing. I'll be praying for some relief for you!

Kristina P. said...

I'm so sorry that things are sucking right now! I hope today is a bit better.

Bee and Rose said...

Go ahead and let it all out:) That's what friends are for. We are hear to help, listen and send lots of prayers. I am a firm believer that it's best to let it all out and not hold it in.

Sending you big Angel hugs and loads of well wishes:)

John Deere Mom said...

Hope that dumping your complaints here made you feel better!!! :)

Brenda Jean said...

It's okay to vent, but I know afterwards you wonder if you should have done it-- I do that. But yes, you should have. Don't bottle it up:)

I have felt that way about showers before- and with the pain your having I don't blame you! Some days all the stuff just seems too mauch to take, but it will get better. {{{{HUGS}}}}

Amy said...

This is your dumping ground. This is where you do it! We are here for you. {{hugs}}

Young Momma said...

This is where you can vent!!! I know there are days where I think I must be depressing to read on my blog or on Twitter. lol We're allowed though!!!! (((hugs))) I hope everything gets better ASAP and that your hubs doesn't get his hours cut. I do remember when I was 8-9 months pregnant and showering was just SO exhausting!!!!! I can't imagine it being painful ontop of that. (((hugs))) I'm here to listen whenever!

Anonymous said...

my hubby had a hard time when I was in the middle of my health issues and so I hope you and yours can continue to work through it. It's rough on us, but even rough on them too .....


Deb said...

ugh... i am so sorry. try to take it one day at a time (maybe even one 1/2 day at a time). i know it will be hard, but try not to look too far down the road. i know from my own experience that worrying about and fearing things can make things a LOT worse. but of course, i am never able to take my own advice!!

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